6 months to 2 years

182 -730 days
4380-17520 hours
262,800-1,051,200 minutes
15,768,000-63,072,000 seconds

That's the time span that my grandma has to live, so says the doctor. i really don't know what to do. i am so scared. I'm going to be out of the country for 2 1/2 months of that time and on internship for part of the time. i won't even be home to be with her. it's not even being with her that i'm so worried about, it's my dad. His way of dealing with the news about my grandma is to do work around the house. he's started like 5 projects around the house in like 4 days, hasn't finished any of them yet, but just starting them is a big deal, especially if you knew my dad. i'm scared that grandma will pass on and dad will regret not spending time with her now because he doesn't know how to deal with it. Grandma was always the strong one in his family. she was a single mom the whole time he was a kid and she was the head of the household and now she's sick and not so strong. i can't imagine how scary this is for him, but he won't deal with it. i just want to be home now. i don't want to be at school being forced to focus on school work. i want to be home with my family. i'll be home in two weeks, that'll just have to do.

Dear Lord,
I need strength and guidance, i don't know what to do right now. be with my family, we need you so much. and Lord, please pour out your Spirit on grandma because i don't know where she's at. I don't know why you do the things you do Lord, but please give me some clarity on this Lord, because i just don't get it.
in Your name,
amen