Brian called me tonight to talk about my last e-mail i sent him which i referenced things with Johan not going so well. I can definitely see an end in sight. So Brian wanted to know when the end was and what i would say and things. Then i realized i really don't know what to say. I've never done this before. I know that i should be honest with him and tell him how i feel, but it is just strange to me.
What makes it even harder is that he hasn't really done anything wrong. I have no solid reasons except this feeling inside me that says that he's not the guy God has given me. He's a great guy and good boyfriend, just not for me. he deserves someone who appreciates him and doesn't get freaked out by his openness and honesty. This sucks!
Dear Lord,
Please give me the words to say and the discernment of timing. Help me to follow your will and not the selfish path that i walk down daily. Give me strength and love.
Amen
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Awww Kali, that does really suck. I like Johann a lot, but you do need to trust what your heart tells you.
Just be open with him about it, and tell him just like what you wrote here. Maybe opening his eyes to your feelings will help the relationship be better? I'd say let him know what's going on in your head then deal with it from there, you don't have to break up yet if it's not the right time, but talking with him about how you feel should be a good thing. Good luck and if you need any support or anything, shoot me a call/email.
--Jamie
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