home, home on the range

so thursday after classes i set off for the 5 hour drive home. it was an exhausting drive home, but it was better than doing homework. it was nice to be home for the weekend.

i had a doctor's appointment friday morning so my doctor could fill out my med forms for China. dad and i went to visit grandma, which was a nice visit. then dad and i went shopping and he bought me some clothes, which i might add, they are so cute! then friday night mom, dad and i went out for a fish fry with my aunt and uncle. it was an okay time.

saturday i spent the morning cleaning all the extra crap that i have at home that i never use. i took a 55 gallon garbage bag and filled it with stuff i don't use, (clothes, shoes, books, etc.) and took it to goodwill. and i still threw out 2 5 gallon bags of trash. Man, i have a lot of stuff! then i went to grandma's and i got to tell her about my Nicaragua trip and show her pictures and then we went to Chili's for lunch. it was good to be one on one with her without my dad or her husband around. i got real honest answers out of her with no jokes or sighs in the background. i really enjoyed the time i spent with her. After lunch with Grandma i helped her check her e-mail and then she was exhausted so i left so she could take a nap. once i got home i just hung out and watched tv for a bit, even though i should have been doing homework. then mom and dad and i had dinner and then i showed mom and dad how to burn cds. they went crazy about it. i think they have like 15 "new" cds now.

i went out with brian and all of his friends last night. it was okay. i like going out with them, but i never get to talk with brian anymore. we go to bars and he talks to some of his friends the whole night and i talk with a different group of his friends all night. it's lame. we did go to a neat bar though. it had shuffle board and a ton of board games. we got there and played scrabble right away. the game was going well until we finished off 2 pitchers, then it was all downhill from there. i think by the end of the game we all had like 15 letters in our hand and we were scoring based on how creative or cool the word we made was. it was really fun. Jon showed up after his show. it was nice to see him, but he isn't the most sensitive guy and wasn't helping me that night. but i didn't expect him to. overall it was a good night. ben and wally came out, they are my favorite friends of brian's currently, so that was good.

so i've realized that it keeps getting harder and harder to come home. i think it is because home is different now that i am an adult. my parents treat me like an adult (for the most part, except for dad's nickname for me hasn't gone away yet). i'm not sad about that, it's just that they treat me like an adult that's not their child sometimes. they tell me things that i don't feel comfortable talking about with them because they are my parents. it's weird. i also realized this weekend that my parents are very reactive insteading of being proactive, which causes a lot of tension in the house. i don't know. it's weird to want to go home so badly but once you are there it's not what you thought was home.

anyways this is like 5 gazillion pages long, so i'm done for the evening.
good night.